i think that finally,
this time it’s clear.
I’m still so sadly lost
in last year.
Everyday this year
just disappeared
I wish someway somehow
we could be there.
i would finally
go back and repeat
all the days
that ended up meaning
so much to me.
But there’ll be,
other nights now
other fights now
other days that turn to weeks
that turn to lives now
for you and I
I think that finally
now this time it’s clear
I’m still so sadly lost
in last year.
There always came a time
when you would crawl away from me
You see, I’m not sure if I was enough
of the man you’d thought I’d be
I always fell down after
all these vision here of you
and now im falling down
this rabbit hole
but im haggin by a noose
you know I always had a problem
always pushing these things out
you see there comes a time
in a young mans life where hes gotta
do what he has to do
but i think that time has come now
and ive had my dick hard in my hand
and now i’m getting fucked by misses luck
and now im
im one of the damned so
please let me
fall asleep
so i can
dream, dream, dream
of a place to call a home for me
i just need somewhere that i can be free
The night is a forest
and I am a child lost amongst
the wonders of her depths
within the confines of a wooden heart.
I am a child,
lost and motherless
searching for what was
scattered around when we destroyed everything.
I am mere memory
of how things used to be
You were so romantically poetic,
your heart in every line.
It seems like such a shame
that no one ever took the time
to sit you down and tell you
just how much you mean.
I don’t know how else to say it
but you mean the world to me.
There came a time to pass
when the world would stop moving
and the wind no longer sings
or blows your name
and the flowers by now
had forgotten it.
Although I had not.
The mountains prayed silently
for the return to their peaks
while valleys lie sleeping
and stars dance
to an infinitesimal beat
humming and lulling us
from awake to sleep
Take my hand
As we walk alone
Together now
through the land
newly blanketed by death
So that we may not lose touch of ourselves
and succumb to the darkness
Sometimes i think about dying while praying.
It all too often startles me.
Shakes me and makes me think
there might be something
we’re not seeing.
You see, my life,
It erased me.
Is this who i am,
or who it’s made me.
I’m still not the way i was
just mostly maybes
and at night when I’m alone
I am a baby.
But i don’t know my mother
or who could save me
I’ve been thinkin about what I want for my birthday.
I don’t make a lot of money like in my good days.
Things haven’t been the same since LA.
I don’t feel the same.
I’m lookin for a change.
I’m thinkin about
Just lockin up myself
With my dog and a guitar
Sit down and write it out
Until I make something of myself
that I can share with someone else
and get out all of me that’s been givin me all this hell
My heart speaks in tongues
I have still not learned to speak.
I can feel that He is calling
but my ears, they are too weak.
I try to follow signals
but I just can’t seem to beat
all these troubles in my head,
all these storms inside of me.
I’m a work with what ya got kind of guy.
These days though,
I don’t got a lot.
I want you to snap my portrait.
I want to see what he looks like.
I want to see the me in me,
the parts of me they like.
I want me in this photo
to appear to you as a bird
and in my wings
I’ve hidden things
they wish they had of learned.
I often dream up pictures
of me down in your bed.
Safe and sound
Asleep so loud
You can hear me inside your head.
I want you to snap my portrait.
Burn it down now to a shred.
Make me think that you know me
until the me you know is dead.
If souls were fish
I’d want to be the sea.
I’d carve them out a home in me.
I’d sit and id wait and watch them and see
Just how it is that they just keep on loving.
If souls were fish
I’d give them all wings.
So they could fly high
or swim deeper
than anyone could see.
And if they are ready
They’ll come out, you’ll see,
and return the love
we’d always been giving.
If souls were fish
I’d want to be the sea.
I’d carve them out a home in me.
I’d sit and id wait and watch them and see
Just how it is that they just keep on loving.
If souls were fish
I’d give them all wings.
So they could fly high
or swim deeper
than anyone could see.
And if they are ready
They’ll come out, you’ll see,
and return the love
we’d always been giving.
Back pressed to the floor.
Another night of no sleep.
Across the ground I am rolling.
All I do is think.
I want to be more
than simple rhymes and ink.
I want to be love,
so honest He speaks.
I can picture myself
in a field, but it’s hazy.
Somewhere in this daydream
I am stuck; I’m a baby.
And as I follow myself around
to rescue that me
I’m suddenly transformed
into someone I can’t see.
This me, doesn’t know me;
And I don’t know this me.
Its terrifying honestly,
how close we both had been.
But somehow without knowing
We’d both began forgetting
what it was we came here for
and who we’re meant to be.
Someone please remind me.
Oh self, won’t you please remind me?
Your eyes were erupting
when they looked into mine.
I couldn’t quite read
what they were screaming this time.
Your heart was an anchor
that I tied to mine.
Everytime you went under,
I thought I might die.
You see, I thought that I loved you
but that was a lie
and it’s still you I write about
after all this damn time.
